12 hours, that's all...

Back in the day I could sleep 10, 12, 15 hours with no problem. But now I'm barely getting 7 hours of sleep at night. Dementia is kicking my a** I really mean that. The things I've been going through with it because of my mom, is because she has it, and it's too much. It's too much for one person. I will admit when the doctor change when she should take one of her medications, everything's been cool. Actually it has been cool for a month. The confusion and today, this is cruel and unusual punishment. I should call child services. hallucinations has been low.

This past week we had some rough moments,  but last night was the worst. You see her sleeping pattern has been off this week. When she gets 10 - 12 hours of sleep, things are milder, but less then that, or more then that, the day doesn't start well. The day is pretty much in sundowning mode, with last night being the worst.

She has a somewhat of a normal time she would go to bed, but that's been hit and miss. But I didn't trip and while working on some crafting items., of course she falls asleep in her recliner. I let her sleep for a bit, then woke her at 8pm to get her to bed. That was the beginning of everything spiraling out of control. From that point on, all types of craziness happen. It took 5 1/2 hours to get her into bed. I was so tired and I managed to get 4 hours of sleep, but I am still tired.

She is not herself this morning and need more sleep also. My prayer is that she goes to bed at a decent time tonight. I wish I had a video of everything that took place last night. I did however recorded when she made up a bed for imaginary children. 

I'm a crafter and do things to help me relax after a long day of caregiving.  Well, she interrupted that, by fusing and complaining about my things being out. If you are like me, you don't like people touching your stuff, and she was doing way to much in that area. So instead of relaxing, I was trying to remain calm. That is the hardest thing to do, because they become young children when Dementia is a part of their life and very aggressive too.  I know talking to her in a calm voice is the best way to get through to her, but my mother is different now, she tend to argue and pick at me, which is totally out of character for her. I find myself walking away and going outside, in order not to disrespect her. Yes, I have failed a lot of times also.

Being a caregiver for someone with dementia is so hard to do. They will go through so much mentally, that you won't know if you're coming or going, that's pretty much everyday. You don't know if you will be fighting or relaxing each day. I don't want to have burnout like so many caregiving for a love one, so I need my crafting down time to keep me sane!

Need all that sleep...