Something is happening...

This illness will have you seeing all types of doctors. We recently saw a neurologist, and I knew they take care of the brain and knows how it functions and so forth. While discussing mother, I learned one of her medications they like to give it to them at night. Why? Because they want them to sleep all night, and I am all for that! Actually, resting is the best thing for them too.

One of the side affects is hallucinations with that particular medications.  I was giving it to her at noon, and let me tell you, sundowning is no joke and mother already has hallucinations, well I felt it did nothing to calm them, but made them worst. So once I started giving it to her at night, the level was lower with the hallucinations.  I wish they would just go away, but unfortunately, it is a part of the disease.

For one week of her taking this medicine at bedtime, I am sleeping better and feel more relaxed until these last two days. I guess she's making up for the little hallucinations she had this past week. Nothing I say is satisfying to her. Once again, I am wrong about everything. I have to do my best to calm myself so that I don't yell, because loud noises is not good for them either. Yes, it is just like dealing with a child when she is sundowning heavily.

However, the week of it all being mild and going to bed at a decent hour, I would love for it to stay that way, but the reality is, it won't.  No one should have to live with this debilitating disease. The type that has no cure and will eventually end their life. My prayer is that my mother doesn't leave her, not knowing who I am. But what I am experiencing with her now, I'm afraid that she won't. So I will leave it in God's hand.

Every little bit helps....