Yesterday was somewhat of a good day, all systems was mild and comfortable, that I can deal with whatever came my way, but today.....even I didn't know if I was coming or going. I wanted to leave so bad, but I knew that I couldn't do that.
Last night didn't end the best, a lot of confusion and anxiety just before going to bed, and this morning was the continuation of last night and it pretty much didn't let up. The thing is, it hit me when I wasn't ready, I just got ip from a good night sleep, so I couldn't adjust fast enough and I became frustrated and angry! Yes, I yelled at my mother and I pray she and the Lord will forgive.
They tell me it will happen, me losing it, because this disease is so unpredictable. You truly don't know what's going to happen each day. A few weeks ago, I had another day like today, but more intense (if that's possible), and she was doing things that, well let's just say, she was making things comfortable for people that she could see, and I couldn't see. She finally ran out of stream around 2am the next morning. By the way, my mother is 93.
I pray the higher dose of one of her medication will calm her back down, where it is more manageable for me. This disease has no cure, but they can treat the symptoms, for as long as their minds will allow.
We must take care of our mental health. Keep stress as low as possible, refrain from worrying about every little thing, but yet exercise our minds in a good way, by keeping it active and well rested.
The mind is a terrible thing to waste...
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