What you see, is what you get...

It's starting to seem that Sundays is the day that's like a box of chocolate.  I really don't know what is going to happen with my mother.  Starts off good, but once she watches the church service live on YouTube, that is when you don't know what you're going to get afterwards.

I knew what happens when my brother and a  family friend stays with her, but I thought it would be different with me being with her today. Guess I was wrong! When she watches the church service on YouTube, I guess she thinks she is there. So when it is over, she believe it is time for us to go home. I do let her know she is at home, but not in her mind.

So I decided to go out and get the 8 inches of snow off my car, in order to change the subject. It worked for a bit, then she felt I been out there to long, got nervous and her anxiety kicked in, and guess who was yelling for me to come inside....🤦🏾‍♀️ The same thing happen when I was on the upper porch moving that snow off of it too.

They tell us to redirect them when these things happen, so I suggested a movie to watch, and she doesn't watch them, but she liked my suggestion, so we watched War Room. I was surprised when she clapped at the end of the movie. But right after, we were back to wanting to go home again! I can't win for losing.

My new reality is getting up each morning, not knowing what to expect when "she" gets up. It is so hard to prepare and I guess I truly can not anymore. Because the person who goes to bed at night, may not be the same person that wakes up the next day!!

Dementia sucks...