I think about asking my doctor if I should start taking some type of vitamin for brain health. I am working hard not to let what my mother is going through to affect me. I've seen to many Caregivers post about being depressed and isolated from the world. There are those who feel like they are losing their minds, and I don't want to feel that way.
Granted, I don't get to do much, and then again I haven't done to much of anything before my mother's diagnosis. Anytime I would go somewhere or think about going somewhere, she would start to worrying to the point that I would change my mind and not go. It was so bad, that when I did go, she wouldn't go to bed until she knew I was back home safe. I can understand the worrying if I was like in my 20's, but this was happening up until I started staying with her...and I will be 66 next month!!! The real breaking point for me was when I was at a game night with people we both knew. At 9:30pm, my phone rang and I panic a bit, because it was my mother. She was calling to see if I was at home yet! Trust me, they teased the mess out of me after that call.
So now, although I am with her, there are moments that she sees me as someone else and won't go to bed until I come home. It happens during the day too, and I then have to figure out how to get her to see me again. Trying to move differently now is a challenge and lying 75% of the time is not me. Granted we all lie here and there, but now, it is like a requirement!
Come on morning...
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