Taking a stand...

Well, mother is back in the hospital. Things took a turn in the wrong direction and it was very bad. Things has not been good of late, and it was getting worst each day.  I've seen in movies how people behave while in a confused state, trying to hit, bite and anything they can do to get away from you. Well I experienced it this past weekend. Although it was scary, but I manage to remain calm as best as I could, until I had to use my phone while trying to keep her safe.

I thank God for a friend of mine that works as a caregiver. If it wasn't for her, I've wouldn't have been able to get her to the hospital!  I may have said this, but Dementia is a cruel disease. This is the last thing I would have wanted for my mother in her final days.  I've questioned God as to why, then I wonder if it's for me? 

We often don't know how to let go of people, whether they are good for us or not.  As well as love ones that leave us suddenly or slowly. It is so hard to do, but why is that. Mainly it is  the fear of the unknown of their absence in our lives. I know who I am suppose to put my trust in, but doing it is often hard to do.

Today, they started my mother back on the medication that she was on the first time she was in the hospital.  Then they tell me, "well, she can go home today". I didn't hesitate to tell them no! I refused to let them punish my 92 year old mother out, not knowing if the medication will help her this time around.  I now see how God's timing works, when man says it is time, because they decided it is, but God knows the future and He had me open my month to tell them, it is not time yet.

Even while caring for love ones health, we must listen to that inner voice, that is speaking to us and wanting to guide us. That voice is of someone that knows the future, the unseen, what is waiting around the corner, preparing the way, so that things will be a little bit easier for us.

Trust God...