Merry-go-round...

It's like a merry-go-round and I am trying to come to terms with the fact, I can't get off! Who would purposely put theirs theirselves in a situation where, pretty much each day repeats itself, or comes pretty close to it. There is one thing a person with Dementia will say, "I want to go home", regardless to the fact, they are home. I for one, have not found the right words, to help reassure her, she is home or to just redirect her thought patterns. So this is just one thing I hear just about every single day.

I just want to get off this ride, but I can't! You tend to hear the same thing each day and it's hard to come up with something new to say back.  My prayer is they find a cure for this disease! Nobody, not even my worst enemy should go though this. It's just that they aren't aware and can't remember day by day. 
My brother came by and the next day, she was in a panic about him that she hasn't seen or heard from him, although he came by the day before. Of course he let her know that he had came by, and her Dementia mind, told him he did not. That's the other thing, when you tell them about something or remind them, you will be totally wrong. 

The other direction of this merry-go-round is when I need to run to the story, home or the pharmacy, normally I can leave with no problem, but of late, fear creeps in and she will be upset at times or a bit scared, by the time I get back. But late, she always tell me about who stopped by while i was gone. Trust me nobody came by.  This comes out of a state of confusion.

You know I, and so many pray that each morning we get up, that day will be different.  Yes, we know their old selves won't be there, but the close we can get to that person, then we know we will have a much better day.

Round and round we go....