Yesterday and today, really made me want to up and leave. Of course my conscience won't let me, but when she get up, with the same crap she went to bed with, and I only got 3 hours of sleep, yeah I want to get the hell out of here!
To be honest, things have not been good since after her eye doctor appointment. So I am running on fumes!! Then I have people telling me how tired I look, and turn around and say, "you need to take care of yourself". Like I don't know that, but do they offer to give me a break so that I can? Hellnaw!!!
People just think I can drop everything and go take a nap, or go where I want, when I want. It's obvious they have no clue about dementia! Hell I don't either and each day you don't know what person is going to show up. Like this morning, the person that went to bed last night, got up this morning, a bit calmer and nicer, but still talking the stuff she was last night, and none of it made sense.
I am glad she went to bed at her normal time tonight and I got a chance to relax a bit before I go to bed. I am going to do my best to be in bed by a certain time, when she is good for the most part. I just pray, I get some help sooner than later.
I so need some rest...
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