Do you remember when you were young, and seeing people walking and talking to themselves? I thought those people were crazy and we called them crazy. Little did we know, their behavior was often due to use of drugs or a mental health issue.
The first person I helped to care for had this issue, and it was due to drug use in his younger years. He was one of those who had conversations with no one there. I got use to him having these full conversations with the voices in his head, and I would tell him not to talk them people while he's with me. Then he would laugh and so would I.
Now days, I am going through it again, but in a different form. You have no clue how stressful and unnerving it is, to have your loved one, look at you and see someone else, a total stranger. What makes it worst, they don't hear your voice either!! With my mother, there is no amount of talking, that is going to convince her, that I am her daughter. It truly breaks my heart each time this happens, which is pretty much ever day.
The thing I am learning more and more, this disease, not only robs the person of who they are, but it robs you of a normal life with your love one. My only fear is, my mother leaving this earth and not knowing who I am.
I've ask the Lord not to take her memory of me away, but I know His will, will be done. But what this is also teaching me, I must take good care of my mental health. You know we all as children, had our imaginary friends to play with and talk too. It was cute then, but now seeing it with an adult, that didn't ask for this, well, it's not cute, it's devastating and there is no cure for it! Lewy Body Dementia
I see you momma...
The first person I helped to care for had this issue, and it was due to drug use in his younger years. He was one of those who had conversations with no one there. I got use to him having these full conversations with the voices in his head, and I would tell him not to talk them people while he's with me. Then he would laugh and so would I.
Now days, I am going through it again, but in a different form. You have no clue how stressful and unnerving it is, to have your loved one, look at you and see someone else, a total stranger. What makes it worst, they don't hear your voice either!! With my mother, there is no amount of talking, that is going to convince her, that I am her daughter. It truly breaks my heart each time this happens, which is pretty much ever day.
The thing I am learning more and more, this disease, not only robs the person of who they are, but it robs you of a normal life with your love one. My only fear is, my mother leaving this earth and not knowing who I am.
I've ask the Lord not to take her memory of me away, but I know His will, will be done. But what this is also teaching me, I must take good care of my mental health. You know we all as children, had our imaginary friends to play with and talk too. It was cute then, but now seeing it with an adult, that didn't ask for this, well, it's not cute, it's devastating and there is no cure for it! Lewy Body Dementia
I see you momma...
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