Nights like this...

If only the sound of rain could quite the strom going on in my mother's mind. I wish I could say or do something to take away those dreams that give her nightmares. Most will recognize when their dreaming, but I am quickly learning with mother, she doesn't know a dream from reality.

It is happening more with her crying out, painful moans and yelling. I whisper a prayer for her and things quite down quickly. However, a few nights ago was the first time she woke up thinking she needed to do something to keep us safe.

Since staying with my mother, I have become a light sleeper and thankful for floors that are creaky. It's my alarm alerting she is up and moving. At least she has doctors that I can message about things and this is very new and I will need more advice as to what to do for her. I know they want her to have good sleep and she has, but lately her sleep has been interrupted and not taking a nap means she is exhausted at bed time.

I know how it feels trying to get restful sleep when exhausted...you can't. I spent a year on nights, 12 shifts and I felt like I was drunk every single day! It was my doctor who was concern about my extremely low blood count. When I told him my situation, he told me that I was suffering from exhaustion and all I was doing was passing out every morning when I went to bed. When my doctor told me, if I were in an accident and got cut, I wouldn't make it. Trust me, that was my last time working nights!

That is my biggest fear, if my mother does not get the proper sleep her body needs, her mind wouldn't be able to function enough to keep her stable.

Dementia sucks...